I want to thank everyone who has been reading my blog for the past week for all of the great comments and discussions you’ve contributed here–it’s extremely useful and productive for me! It is in relation to one of the matters I’ve posted about recently that I’d like to start a particular discussion here, and see what your thoughts are on the matter.

I’ve been getting a lot of mileage out of the above image lately, and I hope to continue to do so. One of the things I love about it is that it is a genuine ancient Greek image from a vase painting showing various instructors in different disciplines teaching youths. Many people have asked me whether I altered the photo or not to make it look like the instructor here is holding a laptop, and the answer is an emphatic “no!” (though I’m flattered people think my PhotoShop skills are that advanced…especially considering I don’t even own PhotoShop or have ready access to it!). What is depicted is a set of wax tablets for writing, which were mounted on hinged boards. One would practice writing on such tablets, and then they could be flattened out or re-melted to be easily re-used for writing that was not essential to have preserved; they could also be used for “rough drafts” of things one was composing before a work was copied onto more expensive and lasting materials (papyrus, parchment, etc.). These types of wax tablets were used well into the medieval period; it just so happens that the form of them looks like a modern laptop, somewhat–but, you can see the instructor here has a stylus that he’d be using on it.
As I’ve launched Academia Antinoi, educational matters are of course very prominent in my mind at present…though, being the Doctor of the Ekklesía Antínoou, and also being a college instructor in daily life (when, that is, various colleges do employ me, which is currently not the case), educational concerns are never far from my thoughts. Education, I think, is a vocation, and it is one that I’ve been doing since I was about seven years old for my younger siblings. It took me a long time to realize that this was, in fact, something that I not only was pretty decent at doing, but that I truly loved, and that it was my “calling” in life–then, once I did figure it out, it was simply a matter of choosing what subjects I’d specialize in. It is a role that I’ve been very honored and privileged to serve in during my devotional life with Antinous, and I hope to continue in it for a long time.
Educo, educere in Latin, from which we get the word “education,” literally means “to lead out, to draw out, to raise up,” and other similar terms. We often hear today that education is the way to “raise people up” to greater and greater potentials in society, and while that used to be true, higher education today generally only raises one’s personal debt from student loans, with no guarantees of a better job or position in society at the other end of things. But, that’s another matter…What the term emphasizes, I think, is the notion that a good educational system or process draws a person out and makes apparent what a person’s potentials and talents happen to be. A good educator should not impart knowledge to a person, so much as draw out the person’s abilities to find knowledge for themselves, and to create knowledge through their own efforts. And, very unfortunately, so much education has come down to simple information dispensing…
So, one of my questions in my own role as Doctor in the Ekklesía Antínoou is: what is my role as an educator within this context? Is it a role of spiritual direction? While I am (formally!) trained in that particular vocation, and it is something that I can do and have done for a few people on a limited basis, it’s not generally what people seem to be looking to me to do. (And, that’s fine!) Is it a role of spiritual technologist–in other words, someone who teaches particular techniques for use in devotion? That is something that I have done, and can do, but it’s not something that I get asked about very often–people don’t come to me and say “How do I pray?” or “What should I do to make a shrine for Antinous?” or other such technological (i.e. technique- or procedure-based) questions.
Most of the time, people come to me–or to the Ekklesía Antínoou group–asking things like “Does Antinous ever get compared to _____ in ancient texts?” Or “Has anyone ever written of Antinous as _____?” There’s a lot of questions like this that simply come down to either confirming or negating an inquiry about a particular factual point. The information on Antinous that is currently available in printed, English popular and scholarly literature is pretty diffuse, and I’m very fortunate to have had the time and occasion to be able to survey, assimilate, and synthesize a great deal of it, such that I can generally answer those sorts of questions off the top of my head. To facilitate others answering those questions for themselves, I’ve produced two books, The Syncretisms of Antinous and Devotio Antinoo: The Doctor’s Notes, Volume One. The Syncretisms of Antinous is not as comprehensive as it could possibly be, and does not contain a huge number of notes and references, nor does it account for “newer” syncretisms (i.e. ones that have come about in 20th and 21st century literatures, many of which I’m personally responsible for!), but instead sticks to syncretisms that are either firmly established in ancient literary records and statuary, or that are long-standing in classical and art historical scholarship of the past few centuries. However, most of the questions of people relating to “Has Antinous ever been compared to ____?” can be answered by what is found in that book–or, for those who don’t own the book, with what can be found on the web page/blog entries that preceded the book. And, for questions on what materials exist out there that tell us something about Antinous from the ancient world, and some newer practices as well, and how to use all of them in a practical and devotional context, is what prompted the writing of Devotio Antinoo: The Doctor’s Notes, Volume One.
But, what about otherwise? And, what about modern paganism and polytheism in more general terms?
Because the Ekklesía Antínoou doesn’t have a “traditional” coven-style structure, that means that the way we work is quite different than the modes of a great deal of modern paganism. In-person meetings between members of the Ekklesía Antínoou are rare, and when they do occur, the level of commitment to the group and to Antinous varies a great deal amongst those present. In those situations, I’ve generally been expected to be the one who “knows how” to do things, and as a result, my role has been “priestly” in those contexts–which is, again, something I’m perfectly happy and willing to do. Just like most ancient polytheist society’s temples, I have tried to make what we do with Antinous something that anyone can come and potentially get something out of, and in which anyone can participate–perhaps not to the degree that they may be used to in certain other forms of paganism, but wherever there is a specific and trained priesthood (however slight or non-specific the training might be) devoted to a particular religious practice or specific deity, it will necessarily be the case that not everyone will know what to do or how to do it. (The same is true of, for example, Shinto–it is most definitely a priestly religion, in which one priest or a small number of trained individuals handle most everything, but there are parts of the ceremony that anyone/everyone can take part in.) Public cultus in the Ekklesía Antínoou, therefore, has very much a “there” characteristic, in terms of Jonathan Z. Smith’s “Here, There, Anywhere” characterizations of various ancient religions. Each person, however, in their own devotions and in the context of their own practices and before their own shrines and altars in their homes, should be able to run things however they prefer and according to their own preferences, as those are “here” contexts (according to Smith’s reckoning). And, that is as it should be.
I am finding, more and more, that I have a great deal in common with the sophist Herodes Attikos, who was–amongst the various other political and priestly roles that he had–an exegetes, a person with specialized religious knowledge who could comment on particular aspects of practice, myth, and other religious matters due to that knowledge. And, I think that is a role that suits me quite well.
[And, if I may interject this here briefly--though this may deserve a post of its own at some stage in the future--when I am acting in a priestly or educational role, it is part of my job to try and represent my deities as well as I possibly can, and to reflect well on them in what I do; but, I don't think it's my job to be the epiphany or the manifestation of those deities in the lives of the students, the devotees, or the attendees at my sessions or rituals, etc. The deities will get involved with them somehow or other if they choose to do so, whether that is through me or through someone or something else, or very directly with them; too often, I've seen some people confuse a particular deity's representative for the deity, and I think that's where all sorts of difficulties, errors, and potential pitfalls enter into religious matters very generally. How many people who are devotees of XYZ deity then give XYZ deity a bad reputation due to their poor conduct, and often their tacit or direct abdications of responsibility, e.g. "I'm bitchy because I'm a devotee of the Morrígan, so I don't really have a say in the matter." But anyway...!?!]
So, in offering the programs of Academia Antinoi, I’m hoping to do a little bit of several things I’ve mentioned above: I’m hoping to give students not only a certain baseline amount of knowledge from which to work from, but also the ability to further that knowledge at their own pace and by their own initiative as they may please; I’m hoping to teach certain techniques that can possibly be used in devotional contexts, with the aim that individual students will be able to adapt them to their own needs and for their greatest personal efficacy as they see fit; and I’m hoping that, if and where desired, I might be able to impart a degree of personal spiritual direction through the individual commenting and discussion that will occur when I evaluate and give feedback on each student’s work and progress through the various stages of the courses offered. As a general curriculum for what I’m attempting to do with the Academia Antinoi program, I think that’s a good set of aims.
I’m interested, however, in hearing what any and all of you who are reading this would like to see in such a program. Does the above sound like it is adequate to you? Does it sound inadequate in particular areas, and if so, what are they and how is what is mentioned above inadequate? If your own desires or wishes for such a program are quite different than what is above, I’d be interested in knowing both what your own desires would happen to be, but also whether you think those desires are just more particular to your own interests and aims and may not be at all relevant to the specifics of Antinoan devotion or the particular forms of polytheism with which the Academia Antinoi curricula would deal. If you have been involved in pagan or polytheist education, of whatever kind, what of the above have you done yourself? Is anything above something that you’d consider adding to your own aims or methods if you do not do so already?
And, perhaps a more wide question: what elements of a good and solid (though not necessarily thorough–and there is a difference…I’d prefer everyone have a solid education rather than everyone having a thorough one, because thoroughness, while always desirable and beneficial, can be left to specialists rather than to generalists) pagan or polytheist education would you like to see as much across the board as possible?
I look forward to your thoughts and discussion on this!
What you’ve described above sounds great! As an educator myself, I think an ideal pagan/polytheist education should find a way to blend both the academic/scholarly (research, sources, familiarity with primary texts) with practical, hands-on, daily *practice* and ritual (the spiritual equivalent of field-work or perhaps lab work). I think most people, and especially adults, respond well to the workshop format, where there is both a presentation of information, as well as opportunities/objectives which call upon the participants to engage with the material and physically/mentally (and in this case, spiritually) DO something. It already sounds like you’re off to a great start. I must say Academia Antinoi sounds fantastic, and I wish you the best with this endeavor! While I unfortunately can’t afford the classes right now, I will definitely be interested at some point in the future!
By: Ryan on April 18, 2012
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Thanks very much for your comments, support, and good wishes!
I’d love to be able to do this in a “real-life” setting, rather than via correspondence, but one must work with what one has, alas…An intensive weekend workshop format could also work, but someone (either myself or the participants) would need to travel, and then there’d have to be minimum required attendance, pre-registrations, etc. So, we’ll get as close to that with “homework” in the meantime as we can!
By: aediculaantinoi on April 18, 2012
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Yes, I think any homework that gets your students up and doing something is always a good thing!
And while I’m here commenting, I wanted to mention that I just left a comment over on Dver’s A Forest Door blog (under her post, “Land Spirits”), in which I mentioned your name. Have you ever considered doing a mini-book tour of the Pacific Northwest? As I said to Dver, I think there are a lot of bookstores and even libraries that might be interested in hosting a book reading featuring your work, and it would be a great way of getting your name out there to more people (and hopefully selling some more books!). My husband/partner and I live up north near Bellingham, and I have some great local contacts if you’re interested. Feel free to email me [delphic78@yahoo.com] if you would like to discuss, or, for that matter, if you’re ever up in this area and would like to meet and chat about Antinous, the Tetrad, and any other such interesting topics!
By: Ryan on April 18, 2012
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It’s an interesting and appealing suggestion, certainly. Unfortunately, book tours cost money–I am a non-driver, and at present, my only income is through what I am making on book sales (which is not much at all…not a single book sold this month, and only three last month), so that makes taking the bus from here (in Anacortes) to Everett from Mount Vernon for $2 kind of a steep prospect these days, alas…
That being said, all options are not exhausted nor impossible–if you could get something organized in Bellingham with your local contacts, that would be really excellent, and I’d appreciate it greatly! I can certainly give any bookstore the info on how to get my various books for wholesale prices, if they are interested in doing so, which would make the events potential money-makers for them, etc.
And, as you’re in Bellingham, that’s very near here! I don’t get up there as much as I’d prefer (see: first paragraph above!), but if I do get up there in the near future, I’d love to get in contact! If you find yourself down in Anacortes on an odd weekend or what-have-you, please also get in touch! It’s always great to meet up with people who are interested in this work…there are so few of us, indeed!
By: aediculaantinoi on April 19, 2012
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I haven’t been to Anacortes in awhile, but we have a friend who often invites us to go camping in that area, so I will definitely let you know if/when I’m nearby!
As for the mini-book tour idea, I completely hear you on the limited funds thing (and I am likewise a non-driver – or as I said in Los Angeles, “green commuter” – myself!). The concept of such a tour is actually perfect for authors with limited or even zero funds. Basically, you appeal to your friends/fans/readers/co-religionists in different nearby cities, giving them the opportunity to serve as the “host” for each stop on your book tour. Your host provides you with food and lodging for the night (and, depending on the host, could pay or provide for your transportation to and within their city), as well as utilizing their own local contacts to help set up a book reading (and maybe a class/workshop!) and also drum up an audience to attend (for example, if you came to Bellingham I would not only invite all my friends, but I would contact other local pagan, queer, and spiritual groups – from the university’s Gay-Straight Alliance to the local chapter of the Radical Faeries, to ensure you an audience). The reading and book signing could take place anywhere from a bookstore to a library or even someone’s living room. If this is planned well enough in advance, you could possibly even a teach a one-day class/workshop at a local university or community college, through their non-credit, continuing adult education program (I know Whatcom Community College up here offers this, and so does the Whatcom Folk School). It’s a win-win situation for everybody – your readers and fans get the privilege of hosting one of their favorite authors for the night or weekend, your food/travel/lodging expenses are covered, new readers are exposed to your work, and any books you sell can then be actual profit!
And not to belabor the point, but if you have contacts in Seattle who would help get you to Seattle and host you for the night, I’m sure there are venues where you could set up a book reading or two (Edge of Circle Books, Quest Bookshop, Traveler’s . . . ?). And we could definitely get you from Seattle to here, even if we drove down to pick you up ourselves (fortunately my husband drives). Now your book tour comprises Seattle and Bellingham. And then you could extend from there, maybe staying the night in Seattle but doing an additional book reading in Tacoma or Everett. Maybe you know someone in Olympia, or can find a host in Portland or Vancouver, B.C. And Eugene’s not far from Portland, right? Before you know it, I bet you could easily have a nice regional book tour on your hands, with little to no money out of pocket on your behalf. Maybe I’m being overly optimistic, but I will definitely pursue getting you some readings up here! (I’m in charge of event planning at the local library, so that’s a guarantee, and I’m meeting my best friend – who runs a bookstore – on Monday. And I have contacts at the community college, the New Age/metaphysical store, etc.).
I hope I don’t come across as pushy, I just really enjoy your work and would like to see your books and ideas in the hands and minds of more people!
By: Ryan on April 19, 2012
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Very cool! Certainly, get in contact when you next think you may be down here!
I know the proprietors and most of the employees at both Travelers (where we’ve held Ekklesía Antínoou rituals before) and Edge of the Circle (where we used to do likewise). Robert at Edge has not re-ordered my books since they sold, and has not had any response whatsoever to my requests to carry my newest books. I did have a book-launch there in October of ’08 when The Phillupic Hymns came out, and not a lot of people attended; likewise with a shop called A Gathering Grove (which has, sadly, gone out of business) in Everett when I held a TPH event there in January of ’09–even less people came, and it’s a larger space, so that was sort of doubly disappointing, alas.
Perhaps once the Esoteric Book Conference happens in Seattle this September, Robert and/or Leon might be more amenable to me doing something there, and carrying my books on a more regular basis. (I don’t know if Leon would…he likes me, my work, and my books, and enjoyed the ritual I did there; but, because my book isn’t really “in-theme” for the shop, he’s never really expressed an interest in carrying it, only in buying copies from me to give to people, etc.) If my presentation at the EBC generates a lot of interest and buzz, maybe both of them will then try and follow-on with it in the time afterwards and capitalize on what interest there is locally that gets created from the conference presentation. I hope one or both of them might be attending this year–they have in the past, although I think both weren’t there last year, if I remember correctly…
Which is not to say that Seattle possibilities are completely exhausted, therefore; only that they’ve not proven to be very profitable in the past. (But, that was three less books and one less blog and Patheos.com column ago…)
Bellingham, on the other hand, is a “market” I’ve never really broken into previously. If you’d be willing to use your contacts and set something up, I’d be very grateful!
In terms of workshops and such, doing something like that might work better outside of a collegiate environment, or even a para-collegiate one. I can’t get most colleges or universities to take me seriously with my (legitimate and extensive!) academic credentials, publications, and accomplishments, so I don’t know if they’d be open to a second-century Graeco-Roman-Egyptian (Celtic!) syncretist recon “Doctor” coming to talk about how relevant Antinous is to queer people, etc., much less pay for it. (And if it were a free event, that might be different; but if I were to charge admission, then I’d probably have to rent the facilities from them, and that can get very expensive very quickly…which would mean admission would have to be higher, but then less people might come, etc.)
I’m certainly all for getting some of my work into the hands and before the eyes of a wider audience, by all means; unfortunately, many of these options have not been as successful in doing that as I had hoped they might be, at least in the venues and at the times in which they occurred in the past. Again, it doesn’t mean they may not be now, but for a big urban area like Seattle, a huge part of it is overcoming the “occult apathy” that so many people seem to have (and the “Seattle apathy” in general), which may be alleviated somewhat now that I no longer live there, and it isn’t as if any old Wednesday afternoon I’m likely to be in Travelers, as it was when I lived there in mid-’07 through the very first few days of ’10. So, who knows? Bellingham might be a great deal more open to this…I certainly hope so!
Thanks for bringing this up, though, and for expressing your desire that things like this happen! I appreciate the vote of confidence!
By: aediculaantinoi on April 19, 2012
at 6:45 pm
One of the main things I have always judged a teaching program on, and tried very hard to maintain when I taught, is coherence. When teaching skills, one needs to build one skill on another in a logical progression, simplest things first, complex skills being introduced after all their building blocks have been put into place. When one wants students to be able to improvise on their own, they need to be shown the infrastructure and know why it is the way it is. (This is often the problem with drive-by questions like “How would I make an altar to so-and-so?” Well, what are you planning to do with it once it’s there? Are you trying to emulate a particular tradition? Is the altar mostly for worship, for meditation, for spellwork, for just sitting there and looking pretty? Is it a microcosm for your symbolic universe, or a workspace, or an aesthetic arrangement? Even if you’re not going to impose a specific framework, beginners don’t always like to be left entirely to their own devices on things like this, and IME are best served by an interim “An image of Whoever and a candle would be lovely,” followed by *some* kind of framework, however flexible. People with a strong desire to improvise will make their way out from there, and people who don’t will have something to work with.)
By: maryoftheassumptions on April 19, 2012
at 6:43 pm
I’m hoping that the way I’ve tentatively structured the courses will lend itself to this sequential building-blocks process you’re talking about here. (And, I would have thought that such matters of coherent and structured process were implied and even expected, but I’m finding that more and more, it’s not the case, alas…!?!)
By: aediculaantinoi on April 19, 2012
at 6:48 pm
I have learned never to assume that the logical approach is self-evident.
By: maryoftheassumptions on April 19, 2012
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