I’m back from the Esoteric Book Conference (and other stuff) “weekend pilgrimage,” and it was, on the whole, a successful event, and an enjoyable one for me.
Apart from some minor travel annoyances (in addition to the fact that I had around 80+ lbs. of baggage in three bags that I had to lug about with me), I can say in general the following…
The Good: Seeing lots of old friends; meeting some new friends; having a large group of Mystai of Antinous in one place together and them feeling as though they’ve deepened in their knowledge of Antinous and the Serpent Path as a result; hearing some good presentations; trading some of my books for the books of other cool people. Further, the wedding ceremony that I performed on Saturday went pretty well without a hitch, and was universally appreciated, applauded, and enjoyed by everyone who attended, and most of them told me so afterwards.
The Bad: Certain presentations were abysmally awful for various reasons (which I’ll describe in my full debrief post on the EBC in the next few days) in manners that ended up impeding further aspects of the conference, including my own presentation. I sold enough books to pay back my investor, but the sales in addition to that pretty much paid for dinner last night and my trip back today. And, the family members who so loved and appreciated my wedding didn’t pay me as much as I thought we had discussed several months back, and in fact paid me less than they tipped their wedding planner (who they also had to pay a fee to), which basically means that as far as paying the bills next month goes, I’m going to be hounded by my debtors until my first paycheck from resuming collegiate teaching comes in, because I won’t have enough money by the time the bills are due.
Because of the latter matters in particular, the following will be the situation on this blog for the remainder of the month: I’ll be posting on my experience of the EBC, and on another matter which has come up in the last few days (don’t worry, it’s something fun that I think you’ll enjoy!), and a short post on the Ekklesía Antínoou holidays for the rest of the month; but, apart from that, I won’t be posting, because I’m going to need to do anything I can meanwhile to beg, borrow, steal, or sell stuff for enough money to pay my bills and meet other obligations I’d made, thinking that my financial situation at present would be more stable than it is. (If you end up buying any of The Red Lotus Library’s books in the meantime, it’s certainly appreciated, but it won’t help me out now, because sales from September won’t actually be paid to me until November…so, no need to buy anything from me now to help me out of a tight spot.)
Unfortunately, the time and effort spent on this blog, as much as I enjoy it, and as much as I think it is useful for some people (who have told me so, which I appreciate!), could often be better spent doing other things. My spiritual practices in devotion to Antinous, Polydeukion, and many other deities do not cease when I’m not writing this blog, so it’s really an adjunct to my devotional activities rather than a mainstay or the foundation of them, and as a result, when crunch times come, something has to give, and this blog is that particular “something.”
So, with any luck, more tomorrow and perhaps the following day on the EBC and other things, and then our Eleusinian Festival on Friday, and a few other things during the month. I hope everyone else is well in the meantime, and is not in the shit as bad as I am, by any stretch of the imagination!